Work and the last 3 days I have been wallowing a bit. I like my boys around and when you are divorced it's shared parenting. So I get depressed sometimes and lately it's been less because I started training myself again with TGM ... We grew and I found something better in TGM .. I suck at consistency, and typos😁 but I have been working hard on being consistent for me so I had the urge to write this post quick. It's been a very hard several years for me emotionally and I can't wait to share with you my "fuck ups" but I turned them into something else but I can't get there until I continue cleaning up my own bullshit. Make sense?? Just remember❤️ It's important to give yourself self compassion. Take care of yourself and be kind to yourself because you have come so far and are getting there. But it's not a sprint. Healing is a marathon and the process requires you to focus on self care. And for me I am immersed and found something new and strong in TGM. It's so therapeutic to do my workout again and I have never loved practicing alone like I do. I love the one on one practice as well and for the first time in years... I am craving it... I also haven't been this strong until I took myself to therapy 8 weeks ago or 6? I don't know but the process has been about 10 weeks and I am thankful.
It's just going backwards before you go forwards so you experience and grow so you can learn correctly. Not just say it but do it.
I'm not disappearing this time because I want to do it for me because it will help you in so many ways... It's just the process of enlightenment or a wake up call, for me it's coming back to all of your senses... So I just wanted to check in and remind you to do it for yourself. So every 2 days is better than disappearing, for me personally. I cherish solitude and just know I miss inspiring you all but I guess I need to inspire myself first so I am and thanks for giving me this energy you are all sending. I feel it. ✨
This is unedited fyi but at least I got it off my chest and I just needed to share ❤️