I should give you some informative facts about me now. I didn’t quite know who I was until recently. I was fighting myself like we all do but over the last year and really six months, I made some big changes in my life to help me understand the “whole” me. I’ll tell you what they are and give you the meaning behind them after.
Red lighting, ruby red and crimson red. There are different shades of red…especially when it turns into nighttime.
Patchouli (blends) are my safe refresher scent. Takes away my stress, anxiety and is so meditative and helps “check in”with myself.
I collect skull heads and paint them.
Matte black everything.
Incense (a specific kind).
No TELEVISION. I cut all TV out of my life 3 months ago.
I am obsessed with sustainability and repurposing things.
I became a minimalist. I got rid of all clutter and I had a lot but I eliminated all physical clutter in my life.
I ended ALL relationships that were toxic for me and my mind.
I lived and survived EVIL. I never knew that EVIL true mean evil existed and I worked hard on understanding it wasn’t me but EVIL is something that I guess now was a blessing but there is something that happens to you when you conquer EVIL.
I read and listen to podcasts daily but I am thankful for You Tube and all of the content creators who provide such great education on gaslighting, narcissism, and TED TALKS that helped me shift. This spiritual awakening and journey requires daily meditation, check ins with myself and my personal development people on you tube because they went through it.
Music. Not just throwing on any station. Music that has texture like a cello, violin. Then of course Lana Del Rey is my therapy. She always was before she was Lana. Marilyn Manson inspires me and he is older like myself. His style and darkness empower me for me reasons I will explain later. He gets me excited.
I make jewelry and it all began as a “distraction” an unintentional way, ritual I began doing daily to help me put down my phone and use my fingers in a way that would help my mind not harm it.
I got off social media for 2 plus months. Instagram is not healthy for people if you don’t use it as a tool to grow. It has a lot of fake people and things.
I know my style. I know the exact fabrics by touch that make me feel good. I have a sensory sensitivity to many things and feeling the right material on my skin is most important. Again I will go deeper into all of this in an entire section because sensitivity to smell, sounds, fabrics are important if you are wanting to become your best self for you.
Boundaries. My boys who are now 20 & 17 taught me how important boundaries are. I never wanted to be the mom the “helicopter mom” that I had. I love my mom but I never knew how to enforce boundaries that WERE ALWAYS DISRESPECTED. Everyone is entitled to setting boundaries their way.
I crave solitude. Being alone is how I grow and thrive. It is powerful to be completely self aware when you were always doubting yourself your life.
My intuition is a gift. I love breathing, pausing to check in with my intuition.
I harnessed and protected my empath.
I created TGM on a dime and can teach you how to get it into your daily life so you don’t need to leave your house. It’s simple and my 4 step process will be available ASAP so you can just go into your zen space and breathe. On your time.
I journal and write daily. I have taken notes daily for 20 years on every situation and things I have created. People aren’t going to ever be anything but them. You can only change your life if you do the work on yourself and stay true to who you want to be. Integrity is all I know.